8.14.2006

Weep

Psalm 119:136 Streams of tears flow from my eyes, for your law is not obeyed.

A few weeks ago I was sharing with some jr. high students why I love Psalm 119 so much and how I desired to love God's word so much I would weep when it was not obeyed. It wasn't so much as a prayer as it was a statement made. But it is happening in my life...a deep love for God's word is being cultivated that I do weep.

Yesterday I talked with a friend for quite some time and my heart broke and broke and broke again. I got off the phone and cried. I don't understand how she can divorce the spiritual from the practical and with such ease take on blase faith. The choices she is making right now I cannot support, they go aganist God and the principles and guidlines he has given for us that we may live an abundant and holy life, not that its never hard or waiting is not involved, but it is good. A gal who poured over the Bible from the time I met her in jr. high and was always taking everything back to God, the gal who peppered all of our deep talks with verses and truth, now told me she doesn't care and she just wants to have fun right now. She ignores the verses and disregards truth. I just don't get it.

Greatly discouraged I called another friend who was able to share this frustration with me and build me back up. We both see too many of strong Christians sacrificing their unwavering faith for a little fun. And neither one of us understand it. But we both realize that it can happen to anyone. But how do we remain steadfast? We guard our hearts, our relationship with God, we dive deep into the Word, but is it enough? Or is it more a cancer that though you go through all the treatments and take all the medications there's no gaurentee you won't succomb?

Oh Lord, may this never be me!